I feel so stupid

1. I feel so stupid that I bought two Holly Hobbie decorative plates to hang in the room of the daughter I'll never have.


2. I feel so stupid that I signed up for the gift registry at Babies 'R' Us so I could use it as a wishlist when the time came...and the time never came.


3. I feel so stupid that I switched to all natural soaps, lotions, cosmetics, detergents, cleaning supplies because I thought it would improve my fertility.


4. I feel so stupid that I actually bought a cloth shower curtain because the mildew resistant ones are toxic.


5. I feel so stupid that I drank spinach-berry-kefir smoothies everyday for months and months and months so my body would be a nice healthy home for a baby that doesn't exist.


6. I feel so stupid that I have been taking prenatal vitamins and folic acid for over a year.


7. I feel so stupid because that one time my husband offered me a sip of his cocktail, I said no...just in case.


8. I feel so stupid that I convinced my husband to cancel the Caribbean cruise we booked because I would probably be too pregnant to travel.


9. I feel so stupid for spending hours laying in bed with hubby thinking of baby names.


10. I feel so stupid for choosing to rent a two-bedroom townhouse.


11. I feel so stupid for worrying about how to handle the cat around this non-existent baby.


12. I feel so stupid for signing up for thebump.com


13. I feel so stupid for taking numerous pregnancy tests...like I had a chance.


14. I feel so stupid for drinking all of that orange juice.


15. I feel so stupid for not taking Nyquil that time I felt sick...just in case.


16. I feel so stupid for keeping a running list of things/books I want my make-believe baby girl to have.


17. I feel so stupid for getting excited when my boobs are sore...then checking to see if my nips have darkened in color.


18. I feel so stupid for getting excited if I felt nauseous. I'm not cool enough for morning sickness.


19. I feel so stupid for buying all those pregnancy test (had to mention it twice).


20. I feel so stupid that I always thought/knew my babies would be cuter than my cousins' kids.